Everyday is a New Day

Beautiful day
Watching you as you awake
Morning stars in your eyes
Your hand in mine

The sky is lit up
Day will be richer than night
So dont think of yesterday
Its here and now

(Chorus)
Its a, its a, its a...new day
Its a, its a, its a...new day

The beauty of you
Gives me my fortitude
Stronger than any dark cloud
Screaming out loud, hey, hey

The sky is lit up
Day will be richer than night
So dont think of yesterday
Its here and now

It's a roller coaster ride

salam,

I was on a terrible emotional roller coaster for the past few days, my mum insist it's just my hormone gone haywire...but I would like to think I still do have some control over myself regardless of a chemical in my body spritzing random emotional stuff all over my brain. So I won't blame it entirely on my 'hormone'. 

What I learn these past few days are how to keep yourself really really patient. I know I've talked about this before, but it always easier said than done. Probably that is why it is so powerful there is this saying that 'Patience is a VIRTUE'. A highest standard of moral. And we all know how something at the 'peak' takes a lot of effort to reach. I'm not the most patient and graceful person on earth, I break down and blow up easily. That is something that I been praying a lot, to have more patient...and Alhamduillah I'm VERY fortunate enough to have met some of the most patient people on earth through my journey. Having them in my thought, remind me that it's a rare trade that a lot of people lack...and it is such a wonderful thing to have in a person. It just makes the person so beautiful, to accept life as a whole...The highs and the downs. 

I was going through inspirational words and pictures, because i think it's such a therapeutic thing to see positive things. Then I stumbled upon a blog which asked me an important question in life ;

source; http://www.thatunreliablegirl.com/2008/10/interlude-road-trip-archives.html

which leads me to write this post. I was so caught up with some 'sad' things that effected my life, that I forgot to distract my self with my surrounding blessings. I forgot how journey leads to a lesson, and I forgot to put the lesson in my life instead of living in the lesson. Am I where I want to be? Yes, and it's amazing...and it's all that matters. Alhamdulillah. I need to remind myself that, and to lead my life more patiently. 

p/s: Thank you for all of your kind words, reader. I appreciate it so much...May God bless all of you.

Love+Peace,

H

Happy You:Happy Me

All of us wants to be happy, 

then it's best we share our happiness and let other feel them too...

In any way they choose...

because you chose your own way

and other ways doesn't make yourself feel at peace

why would it be different for them?

"None of you is a believer untill he loves for his brother (or sister) what he loves for himself"

-Hadith Sahih Muslim

More about the "Golden Rule" and how it has been translated in so many way, and has been known as the most common moral conduct or practise in many religion/system of mankind. Please read: HERE

Rain+Pretty Bow=Rainbow

Salam,

it has been raining for 3 days straight, it's cold but it's cosy. 

We spent our weekend in the house, spending our little time together. It seems the rain just washes away any negativity, any stress and tension, and clear up the air.

SubhanAllah,

May it clear up when needed to be clear,

May God shower all of us, with His blessings...

Amen.

Love+Peace,

H

*hugs*

The Old Nonsense:Move On

Share your Wisdom...

Monday Morning Mumbles

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

salam,

We just had our breakfast, and my husband now is on his way sending his boy to school. It's one of those morning all of us woke up all cheery and fresh, and got plenty of time to relax and take our time to do our thing. I have class today, so i decided to 'try' and share something before i leave the house. My mom came and visit me on saturday and spending the night here. It was an amazing weekend, i really enjoy here visit. We shared so much, about parenting...about being a wife, about cooking and the whole mother-daughter conversation we could ask for. Having to dive into a crash course to parenting, i found myself keep breaking down feeling 'what am i doing?' and having my mum to assure me that everything would take its course is a great reliever. So, to say the least...i think that makes me feel so all 'cheery and optimistic' on a monday morning.

I'm almost 16 weeks long now (i know right? time flies like woosssh), and Alhamdulillah, the challenge is getting harder and harder but the lesson learned keeps getting better and better. One of those challenge is to keep your mind at peace. For the last 2 weeks, i've been dealing with 'rude & mean' people, at first i gotten beyond annoyed. At then i met one of my German friend who just came back from India for her silent retreat session after 3 months staying in a ashram. She told me something that i somehow forgot to remember, "God had allow all these 'negative' people to roam the earth, there must be a reason why" I keep forgetting that everything that happen around me IS by God's allowance...so, if one women to decide to yell at me, it is not my stand to point out how wrong SHE is. or how rude SHE is...but how do I, myself, tolerate what is presented in front of me. How do I respond and how i deal with it. Obviously, everytime I get reeled up about something 'not right', I'll be the one getting upset over it...I'm the one who is tensing about it. When by right, I could deal it positively, and get it over with.

My previous post, I talked about how city people were getting more hostile than i could remember. So i told myself, "God allow this people to cross my path, God allow this people to talk to me like this, If i allow myself to respond the same way, then i could see how 'ugly' it looks." So i responded in other way possible. I remember me and my mum went out for dinner, and the waitress had this most sour face you could imagine, first impression 'you're killing my mood, man~"...then i took a second, and give her the biggest, warmest and sincere smile i could find inside and just hope it makes her day. At first of course, she persist with her mood, so i keep talking to her joyfully, continue smiling like she's the sweetest person i know, and slowly she was the most helpful waitress to us that night. As cliche i would describe it, like magic the whole night and atmosphere was like a change of universe, everyone was nice towards each other. No one got into our nerve, and Alhamdulillah it turned out to be a very nice dinner out in Kuala Lumpur City! 

All i got to do now is, keep reminding myself, God allow all these things to happen everything for a reason. I wouldn't lie though, at times it slips from my mind and i let it get the best of me. InsyaAllah by having it written down in a post would allow me to remember it better...which reminds me, writing down things does wonder for a person like me. Especially during pregnancy. I have the most absent mind right now, its ridiculous. I can actually hold something and forget where i put it within 5 seconds. So, when my mum had to wait for another week because i forgot that i was suppose to return her book, i decided to just need to write it in my little black book that i took with me wherever i go. I didn't need to check and look it up again, i just need to write them down. Alhamdulillah, i found myself remembering what i needed to do. So i hope me writing this down could help me remember to keep my mind 'positive' and remember that God allows it happen for a reason. All we need to do is take a second to hear, see and Furqan (analyze) before going to auto-respond. 

Love+Peace,

H

On Children By Khalil Gibran

Marianna, Kahlil's Sister. Painting by Kahlil Gibran

Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable.

H notes:  Now being a parent, i see a new light in perspective on a child. It's a day to day ambition, a day to day achievement...Expectation may be the key of a lot of dissapointment, but I can only do but pray and hope that my step son, the little feet (and insyaAllah, many of our children to come) would grow up as a steady arrow and soar forward...May God guide me to be the best Bow i can be...Amen~

Saying Something

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

salam,

Phew, it's been awhile don't you think? I apologize for the lack of updates since it was a hard week for me last week. I was going through a parental meltdown and since my mum finally came back after 6 months away from home, visiting my eldest sister in the UK, i couldn't find a more prefect timing to bond and share my 'meltdown' with her. I missed my mum, and going through crash course to parenthood, and not having anyone around me to share them with (besides you girls in my blogs), having her back is like a bucket of water over a small triggering flame. Alhamdulillah. 

And now, after gaining new motivations...and really being optimistic (as cliche as it sound), things are definitely looking up. Negative aura is out the window and to make it great again, I could READ again...together now, YAY!! I tried not to get ambitious about reading, so before i jump on the pregnancy research wagon again, i tried reading something light. My mum brough back some books which she bought for her in-flight reading material, adding to my suprise over other things she brought back, i found a book that was on my reading list : The Girls of Riyadh which she bought on her flight break in Dubai, visiting my younger sister.

As for my review, it's like i mentioned, it is a very light read and to be frank, it's really not that bad. It would be like reading pages of post from your favorite anonymous-reality-blog. Something like Sex-In-The-City Saudi style. Definitely one of your in-flight reading material. 

Updates on my parental dilemma? Alhamdulillah, i think we're making progress at home, my step son and i, we're slowly tolerating and cooperating to each other. Let's hope the next parental-roller-coaster won't drive me up the wall. Being a mum sure makes us appreciate our mum much more, i couldn't imagine there's a higher degree of appreciating and loving our mother, but there is...SubhanAllah. 

I'm starting to get baby bumps, and it's pretty visible already. Although since i'm always clad in loose fitting blouses and abaya, it's still not too obvious. I'm still pretty hungry all the time. and by afternoon, i'm still getting all heavy-eyed. And since i've started to go back to the university to teach again, i've been counting my yawn every afternoon i'm in class. Thank God i'm only have class 2 days a week, or else i'm sure the kids is taking more of my tonsil than the notes i'm sending. *shheessh* I gave my first lecture last week, and i'm still very excited with teaching. I might consider their offer for me to teach more classes, insyaAllah...probably after the little feet is out and about. I even consider having little feet dangling in baby pouch around my body whenever i go to teach...i wonder if the university would think it's a bad idea...*hmm* who knows, insyaAllah.

More updates insyaAllah, in the meantime. Take one day at a time...

"Yesterday is a lesson, Today is a chance, and Tomorrow is uncertain"...YALLAH!!

Love+Peace,

H

Perfect Love

“Perfect love is rare indeed – for to be a lover will require that you continually have the subtlety of the very wise, the flexibility of the child, the sensitivity of the artist, the understanding of the philosopher, the acceptance of the saint, the tolerance of the scholar and the fortitude of the certain.”  (Leo Buscaglia)

New Year: Calvin & Hobbes: Death: Knowledge

Salam,
This happen to be my ultimate favorite comic book/strip of all time; Calvin & Hobbes. I've been reading it since i could remember, and i just love how intelligently funny it is. At times, he talks about issues way advanced for his age and drive the adults around him crazy...the little guy is a genius. Love it!

Happy New Year everyone! May this year, bring another chapter in our life, May God bless us all. Another year wiser, Another year to gain and do our best with our knowledge, InsyaAllah. And on most time, we don't always understand it...and on most time, it's really not our business to know it....

Love+Peace,

H

Love: Calvin & Hobbes

Some ideas for that extra snow laying around...if you're still all moody that the holiday is over, a way to vent it out. Let it go people...let it go....

Hide:Seek

graphic: source painting by Lynet McDonald

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

I hide from the path of shame i walked before,

I seek for the light that guide me through,

I hide under the light so the shadow might not enter,

I seek the strength to stay away for the darkness,

I hide from those who seek for truth,

I seek for those who hide their suffering,

I hide from the ego and the pride that feeds the world,

I seek for the grace and mercy that fills my soul,

I hide beyond the realm of spaces,

I seek for infinite field that opens up to everything,

I hide from the world may it not catch me staring,

I seek for blindness from attachment,

Hide,

Seek,

I hide for the person i was once before,

I seek for the person that I am...

for the fact, that I am nothing

and I am everything

Have i found it then?

Powerful Video: The Hugging Saint

Salam,
I was introduced today to a VERY powerful video by my sister in law. We were as usual, were exchanging thoughts and share opinions about all the things that is going on with our life, about awareness...acceptance...love...fear and Amma was brought up. How she's known as a 'Hugging Saint'. I know, there's a lot of 'hug a person'/'give a hug' campaign going on worldwide...but watching this video brought tears (sobbing~) to my eyes. It's absolutely amazing how a HUMANBEING, could share sincere unconditional and undivided love to countless people..and share time regardless of differences. It struck me so deep inside how she said that 'Love does not need effort' (or something like that), because to be honest we often feel like we need to put effort and struggle and think it is 'Love'. At least at certain time, i do...I confused myself thinking that i'm putting effort in the name of 'Love', when truth is LOVE comes from within and it will overflow naturally.

Unconditional Love is VERY powerful and we all possess this 'power'. Amma is potraying that we all can LOVE crossing the border of countries, race, and religion.



More about Amma via wikipedia HERE

Just The Way You Are by Kina Grannis

Salam,
When a man loves you, he would treat you with respect without you demanding them...
When a man loves you, he would speak to you even the room is filled with other women...
When a man loves you, he would say only beautiful things and everything that you're worth...
When a man loves you, he appreciates the little things you do

You would give up everything for the person you love,
but if the person love you more, he wouldn't want you to give up anything...

This post of for those who thinks they need to suffer for love...
*hugs* God will meet you your soulmate, and he would be better than the ones before.
Give your Love to God, and God will shower you with more...



p/s: Abusive relationship is not merely physical, but also mentally as well. Please be aware of this.

Love+Peace,
H

Read more here for related issue:
http://blockspotted.blogspot.com/2010/09/women-conversation.html

To Be or Not To Be

"Take Care Of Your Own Selves"

"O you who believe! Take care of your own selves. If you follow the right guidance and enjoin what is right and forbid what is wrong no hurt can come to you from those who are in error. The return of you all is to Allah, then He will inform you about (all) that which you used to do." 

Quran [5:105]

Stacie Orrico - So Simple

Fear:Love

Sin:Lack of Love?

"A professor talked to his student and tell them that God doesn’t exist because if God exist, God created everything, and if he created everything, he also created evil, then if He exist, then God is evil.” 

And a student, a young kid stood up and asked the teacher “Professor, does cold exist?” 

“Well of course it does. Do you not l feel cold? What kind of question is that?” And his student said “You are wrong professor. According to the law of physics, what we consider cold is the absence of heat. We could study heat but not cold. 

Professor, does does darkness exist?” Again, the professor answered “Yes it does. You see darkness every night before you sleep. “ And again the student answered him back “Professor, you are wrong again. Darkness in reality is the absence of light. We could study light but not darkness. 

Evil does not exist just like cold and darkness. God did not create evil. Evil happens when man does not have God’s love in their heart.” 

After saying this, the student sat down as the professor realized that he was wrong.

Now may I then ask: Does sin exist? Sin is in fact is the absence of love. If we all have love in our hearts, will there be sin in the world? If we learn what it really means to love unconditionally, we would never see evil in the world.

So when does an act considered sinful or moral?"

-Anonymous