Everyday is a New Day

Beautiful day
Watching you as you awake
Morning stars in your eyes
Your hand in mine

The sky is lit up
Day will be richer than night
So dont think of yesterday
Its here and now

(Chorus)
Its a, its a, its a...new day
Its a, its a, its a...new day

The beauty of you
Gives me my fortitude
Stronger than any dark cloud
Screaming out loud, hey, hey

The sky is lit up
Day will be richer than night
So dont think of yesterday
Its here and now

It's a roller coaster ride

salam,

I was on a terrible emotional roller coaster for the past few days, my mum insist it's just my hormone gone haywire...but I would like to think I still do have some control over myself regardless of a chemical in my body spritzing random emotional stuff all over my brain. So I won't blame it entirely on my 'hormone'. 

What I learn these past few days are how to keep yourself really really patient. I know I've talked about this before, but it always easier said than done. Probably that is why it is so powerful there is this saying that 'Patience is a VIRTUE'. A highest standard of moral. And we all know how something at the 'peak' takes a lot of effort to reach. I'm not the most patient and graceful person on earth, I break down and blow up easily. That is something that I been praying a lot, to have more patient...and Alhamduillah I'm VERY fortunate enough to have met some of the most patient people on earth through my journey. Having them in my thought, remind me that it's a rare trade that a lot of people lack...and it is such a wonderful thing to have in a person. It just makes the person so beautiful, to accept life as a whole...The highs and the downs. 

I was going through inspirational words and pictures, because i think it's such a therapeutic thing to see positive things. Then I stumbled upon a blog which asked me an important question in life ;

source; http://www.thatunreliablegirl.com/2008/10/interlude-road-trip-archives.html

which leads me to write this post. I was so caught up with some 'sad' things that effected my life, that I forgot to distract my self with my surrounding blessings. I forgot how journey leads to a lesson, and I forgot to put the lesson in my life instead of living in the lesson. Am I where I want to be? Yes, and it's amazing...and it's all that matters. Alhamdulillah. I need to remind myself that, and to lead my life more patiently. 

p/s: Thank you for all of your kind words, reader. I appreciate it so much...May God bless all of you.

Love+Peace,

H

Rain+Pretty Bow=Rainbow

Salam,

it has been raining for 3 days straight, it's cold but it's cosy. 

We spent our weekend in the house, spending our little time together. It seems the rain just washes away any negativity, any stress and tension, and clear up the air.

SubhanAllah,

May it clear up when needed to be clear,

May God shower all of us, with His blessings...

Amen.

Love+Peace,

H

*hugs*

The Old Nonsense:Move On

Share your Wisdom...

Monday Morning Mumbles

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

salam,

We just had our breakfast, and my husband now is on his way sending his boy to school. It's one of those morning all of us woke up all cheery and fresh, and got plenty of time to relax and take our time to do our thing. I have class today, so i decided to 'try' and share something before i leave the house. My mom came and visit me on saturday and spending the night here. It was an amazing weekend, i really enjoy here visit. We shared so much, about parenting...about being a wife, about cooking and the whole mother-daughter conversation we could ask for. Having to dive into a crash course to parenting, i found myself keep breaking down feeling 'what am i doing?' and having my mum to assure me that everything would take its course is a great reliever. So, to say the least...i think that makes me feel so all 'cheery and optimistic' on a monday morning.

I'm almost 16 weeks long now (i know right? time flies like woosssh), and Alhamdulillah, the challenge is getting harder and harder but the lesson learned keeps getting better and better. One of those challenge is to keep your mind at peace. For the last 2 weeks, i've been dealing with 'rude & mean' people, at first i gotten beyond annoyed. At then i met one of my German friend who just came back from India for her silent retreat session after 3 months staying in a ashram. She told me something that i somehow forgot to remember, "God had allow all these 'negative' people to roam the earth, there must be a reason why" I keep forgetting that everything that happen around me IS by God's allowance...so, if one women to decide to yell at me, it is not my stand to point out how wrong SHE is. or how rude SHE is...but how do I, myself, tolerate what is presented in front of me. How do I respond and how i deal with it. Obviously, everytime I get reeled up about something 'not right', I'll be the one getting upset over it...I'm the one who is tensing about it. When by right, I could deal it positively, and get it over with.

My previous post, I talked about how city people were getting more hostile than i could remember. So i told myself, "God allow this people to cross my path, God allow this people to talk to me like this, If i allow myself to respond the same way, then i could see how 'ugly' it looks." So i responded in other way possible. I remember me and my mum went out for dinner, and the waitress had this most sour face you could imagine, first impression 'you're killing my mood, man~"...then i took a second, and give her the biggest, warmest and sincere smile i could find inside and just hope it makes her day. At first of course, she persist with her mood, so i keep talking to her joyfully, continue smiling like she's the sweetest person i know, and slowly she was the most helpful waitress to us that night. As cliche i would describe it, like magic the whole night and atmosphere was like a change of universe, everyone was nice towards each other. No one got into our nerve, and Alhamdulillah it turned out to be a very nice dinner out in Kuala Lumpur City! 

All i got to do now is, keep reminding myself, God allow all these things to happen everything for a reason. I wouldn't lie though, at times it slips from my mind and i let it get the best of me. InsyaAllah by having it written down in a post would allow me to remember it better...which reminds me, writing down things does wonder for a person like me. Especially during pregnancy. I have the most absent mind right now, its ridiculous. I can actually hold something and forget where i put it within 5 seconds. So, when my mum had to wait for another week because i forgot that i was suppose to return her book, i decided to just need to write it in my little black book that i took with me wherever i go. I didn't need to check and look it up again, i just need to write them down. Alhamdulillah, i found myself remembering what i needed to do. So i hope me writing this down could help me remember to keep my mind 'positive' and remember that God allows it happen for a reason. All we need to do is take a second to hear, see and Furqan (analyze) before going to auto-respond. 

Love+Peace,

H

On Children By Khalil Gibran

Marianna, Kahlil's Sister. Painting by Kahlil Gibran

Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable.

H notes:  Now being a parent, i see a new light in perspective on a child. It's a day to day ambition, a day to day achievement...Expectation may be the key of a lot of dissapointment, but I can only do but pray and hope that my step son, the little feet (and insyaAllah, many of our children to come) would grow up as a steady arrow and soar forward...May God guide me to be the best Bow i can be...Amen~

Word Hard: Be Nice

Salam,
I thought this poster is very inspiring and everyone should get this imprinted in their brain all the time. Thanks to Rain and her post about her maid, dreams and superficial people, I was reminded about how i was treated when i was in the city. Since i got married, i have not spend more than 2 days in the city, and since my mum was back, i decided to spend the whole weekend with her. I stayed from friday till monday afternoon. In between, we went to do a little shopping, and i helped her buy dinner. I had an an enormous suprise on how hostile everyone was. Especially those in the restaurant and in retail line. By the end of the trip back from the city, i was still shocked by how much human had increasingly lacking of love, politeness and even mercy. My mum was telling me it's so obvious to her especially since coming back from the UK, where everyone is always speaking politely.

I remember i went to buy dinner, as i was placing my order, the waitress didn't even look at me. So i asked, "Can i place my order?" and started looking someplace else, thought i might get the wrong 'order counter'. The waitress then sharply snapped at me as she was handing some change to the customer, (which i overlooked) "I'm passing her money!!", I looked at her in confusion...I told her i'm sorry and i was suprised that she barked at me like that. What happen to your old "I'm sorry, / Excuse me...Hold on a second, I'll be right with you"? Why i didn't walked out was beyond me, so we stayed and wait for our order to be ready. I was watching all the restaurant staff, AND NONE of them was even smiling or even talking to each other. Then, on a different occasion, as we were on our way back home from a relative house, my mum decided to stop by a drive through. As we were placing our order, the other receiver was quiet...so my mum asked and raised her voice (the place was rather noisy) afraid the receiver couldn't hear her order, "Can you hear me?", and in an annoyed tone "Hey, I hear you...don't shout!!!" Me and my mum exchange look and was suprise with the respond. Even at the grocery. Even getting a change, is like begging for money at the side of the road. As i was waiting for my change, the cashier looked at me at the corner of her eyes, and ask me "what are you waiting for?"..."umm my change...50cents", and she actually mummbles under her breath as she slap me my change...WHA?

What a sad city...

Love: Calvin & Hobbes

Some ideas for that extra snow laying around...if you're still all moody that the holiday is over, a way to vent it out. Let it go people...let it go....

Hide:Seek

graphic: source painting by Lynet McDonald

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

I hide from the path of shame i walked before,

I seek for the light that guide me through,

I hide under the light so the shadow might not enter,

I seek the strength to stay away for the darkness,

I hide from those who seek for truth,

I seek for those who hide their suffering,

I hide from the ego and the pride that feeds the world,

I seek for the grace and mercy that fills my soul,

I hide beyond the realm of spaces,

I seek for infinite field that opens up to everything,

I hide from the world may it not catch me staring,

I seek for blindness from attachment,

Hide,

Seek,

I hide for the person i was once before,

I seek for the person that I am...

for the fact, that I am nothing

and I am everything

Have i found it then?

Sarcastic Much? LOL!

9 Weeks Pregnancy Update: Mood Swings are Normal

To Be or Not To Be

Love Biscuits

Happy New Year:1432H

Pregnancy Update: 8 weeks and 2 days

Salam,
I'm feeling too sluggish these couple of days, probably due to too much moving around over the weekend. It was a great weekend, i have to say but i think i pushed myself a little too hard. Being pregnant can sure get you all feeling alright on one day and blergh on the other day, it's not even funny. Today, i decided to let the pictures do all the talking on how sluggish i feel today...i still don't have the energy even to think at the moment...

http://www.adambaumgoldgallery.com/Bell_Marc/Sluggish.jpg

http://snevelandco.com/images/sluggish2_jzo1.jpg

Fear:Love

Forgiveness

"forgiveness is about giving up: giving up your right to revenge.  And giving up feelings of resentment, bitterness and hatred, replacing them with compassion toward the offender.  And treating the offender as a fellow human being."

-The Amish Forgive ; read more here


"Just as it is important to believe in the mercy and forgiveness of Allah, it is also necessary to base human relations on forgiveness. We cannot expect Allah’s forgiveness unless we also forgive those who do wrong to us. Forgiving each other, even forgiving one’s enemies is one of the most important Islamic teaching. 


In the Qur’an Allah has described the Believers as “those who avoid major sins and acts of indecencies and when they are angry they forgive.” (al-Shura 42:37) 


Later in the same Surah Allah says, “The reward of the evil is the evil thereof, but whosoever forgives and makes amends, his reward is upon Allah.” (al-Shura 42:40) 


In another place the Qur’an says, “If you punish, then punish with the like of that wherewith you were afflicted. But if you endure patiently, indeed it is better for the patient. Endure you patiently. Your patience is not except through the help of Allah (al-Nahl 16:126-127) "
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The Next Time : You Feel That You Failed

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Plagiarism:Stealing

Plagiarism: The act of presenting another's work or ideas as your own. Not cool ~

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

salam,

I was tracking back my reader, and visit their own blog. Thanx to Feedjit, i could actually trace back my visitor, from where they found me. I visited a blog, and to my suprise, i found one of my poetry in one of its post. Of course, i didn't mind sharing any of my post/pictures/poetry/links, the fact i know i tend to cut and paste myself articles that i fancy to share in my blog. But you see, as a lecturer, i always advice my student that there is nothing wrong referring to an existing idea, just as long as you know and respect where the initial idea came from. It is plain wrong for us to take something that does not belong to us, and claim that it is ours. It is not stealing per say, but you can say the concept is the same. Ideas especially are intellectual property, you go through inspirations and sincerity to show your own piece of mind. So i was obviously suprise to see one of my poetry was copied through and through including the pictures it was attached to another person's blog entry, with its own name as its author. I am not mad, just suprise. 

Am i being over emotional? If my work should go about anonymous, then let it be. May God protect myself, from any hurtful and ill feelings. *i still feel sad though* 

H Note: Please have some respect on the author's idea's and words. Sharing is the whole point of blogging anyway, so the next time you like to share something, please link back to the source or just drop a comment/email just to say hi, and tell me you like to share them. Please ask, it rather nicer that way. 

Thank You readers, May God bless all of you.